Current mood:	contemplative
Current music:	The Verve - Bittersweet Symphony

oh boy
Its late, just got back from a long day. Let's see this weekend was good, rehearsal weekend was awesome, its going to be an awesome show, I can't wait till may 20th, move in and start performing. As much as I dislike driving, the drive up to chicago wasnt bad this time. Driving with Henry helped alot, somone to talk to helped pass the time. Ate at East Coast Pizzain St. Louis on the drive back sunday night, it was ok, I've had better pizza. Hmm what else, it looks like I will be having lunch with Samson every friday so we can just talk about stuff, which is my absolute favorite thing to do, just talk about whatever. I need to stop getting myself into so many things, my schedule is pretty much booked solid this semester, which I really wanted to have an easy schedule this semester and give my self a chance to breathe, but oh well. I will survive, so long as I keep God in the right place in my life things will be fine. On another note, I really want to stop "searching" for a girl. I mean I need to just relax and learn that it will happen when its right. I just cant get over the feeling of needing to be with somone. Even though at this point in my life, I dont want it to be just somone, I want it to be THAT somone. I mean who doesnt want to know who their "spouse" is gonna be right now. But sometimes, well most of the time I let it control my thoughts and I lose focus because I am always thinking "man she could be my wife" etc etc. But than I usually see a girl, and I am like WOW, blah blah, and than I see her boyfriend, and I let it get to me, like how come I am not with somone, whats wrong with me. Or even lately I see a ring around her finger and I am like, why am I not at that point yet, or worse, I meet somone and think that she could be the one and than begin to fall for her and than get devistated when I find out she is taken or whatever. It is going to drive me insane if I keep it up, I am getting better and learning to to just wait it out and seek God in the midst of all this, but man would I like to know who I am going to marry, I just want that feeling of knowing that I am going to love somone FOREVER.

well enough of this, I am starting to sound like dashboard confessional or something

later on - Nate